Wanna be loved?

Jill Scott and Jazmine Sullivan have pretty much documented my life in songs, soooo I would like to share lyrics, yet again. Don't worry an actual post is coming soon, I promise! haha.

It's bad, It's bad

Sometimes shit is bad.....

Look

Don't feel no pity for me 'cause I'm goin through a couple things,

Life means change, That's the way it goes goes

All my life I had a constant burning a strong deep desire

An ambiguous yearning, yearning yearning

For something better

For something bigger

For something wider

For something higher

And lots of regrets 'cause I ain't seem to found it yet

I've been searching around the world, never knowing what to expect

I get sad sometimes, yes I be mad sometimes

"cause I'm out here on the grind, making mine

And I still can't seem to find

What I've been looking for

Opened so many doors

For real, yo..... I just wanna be loved

-Jill Scott

Healing

I release all disappointment

From my mental, physical, spiritual and emotional body

'Cause I know the Spirit guides me and love lives inside me, that's why

Today I take life as it comes

-India.Arie

Nuisances

Hellur world!! It is officially 2009, school has officially started, I am officially 20 years old, and officially have a stylin' new haircut haha. 

But I have to vent, because some things have annoyed me in the short new year and if I don't vent, it will eat away at me. This is the easiest way to get it all out because I can think through it all. 

I am a bitchy person, I'll be the first to admit it. My bitchiness and mistrust of others is a result of my distaste and intolerance for lies and facetiousness and how much other people's lies and facetiousness have seriously hurt me over the years. However, I was raised in a loving and caring family who has always taught me to show common respect to people. My mother has always found a redeeming quality in every person she has ever met (except one, amazingly) and has always said "you don't have to like them, but you have to show respect." Needless to say one of my biggest pet peeves is when people do not show common respect to others or those around them or myself. Recognizing that a person is right in front of you is not that hard. If you see them say hi. I don't care if you hate me, just say hi. 

If and when you finally do decide to say hi, please do not talk shit about me until you are out of eye and ear shot. Quite frankly, I don't care what you have to say about me. I am a work in progress, I realize this, I know I have major flaws and I know that I may have rubbed you the wrong way, I am sorry. But please keep your thoughts to yourself, and show some class. I try not to talk about other people, so I would appreciate it if you would show the same kind of respect and at least not do it "behind my back" which is really in front of my face. If you want to say something that close to me, say it to my face.

I would also like people to keep it real. If you don't like me, don't be fake. If you are being fake, you are only bringing me down and I need to progress as much as possible in these college years, so please save yourself the time and energy and just stop  the fake-ness. And again, if you have a problem, bring it up with me. I am a good listener, and will give you the time to express your opinion as long as you are being honest and not tearing me apart.

So thank you world for listening. I am trying to be a better person, and I think if everyone showed some common respect to each other we could all show some improvements.